Sunday, January 29, 2012

busy busy busy

It was a long hard week... 
This week will be as well
I'll post when I can
I hate when I don't have time to write down my thoughts and feelings...
Hopefully more to come soon

Monday, January 23, 2012

Feast Upon His Love

Jacob 3:1-2

"...Look unto God with firmness of mind, and pray unto him with exceeding faith, and he will console you in your afflictions, and he will plead your cause, and send down justice upon those who seek your destruction...lift up your heads and receive the pleasing word of God, and feast upon his love; for ye may, if your minds are firm, forever."

Excerpt from the For the Strength of Youth booklet

"To help you become all that the Lord wants you to become, get on your knees each day and express to Him the desires of your heart. He is the source of all wisdom, and you need His help. He will hear and answer you...the Lord will make much more out of your life than you can by yourself. He will increase your opportunities, expand your vision, and strengthen you. He will give you the help you need to meet your trials and challenges. You will find true joy as you come to know your Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, and feel their love for you."

Friday, January 20, 2012

a few things..

1. Sorry for the non existent outfit posts (I'm sure no one really cares, I don't take cute pictures or anything..) but here are the reasons they have been lacking
  • I lost all creativity in outfit picking lately-no desire to search through my clothes and mind for cute ideas 
  • I have to be to school at 7:30am.. for dance class 
  • It's too early to care or try to think
  • I just want to crawl back into bed so I go to the most comfy options I have
  • I am chronically freezing all the time so I choose the warmest clothes I can find and layer them all on (and I only wear boots-no bare feet/legs anywhere
  • I've lost a lot of weight lately (not on purpose) so I only have a few pairs of pants that fit (which limit my options to: white jeans, regular jeans (3 pairs-2 have patched holes in the crotch so I limit myself to wearing those only when necessary), and 2 legging-ish pants (my dark grey pixie pants and a light grey pair) and I get way too cold to wear skirts/dresses except for at church or maybe work....
  • So... I wish I picked out cute creative outfits like this... (gorgeous Rachel - Pink Peonies)
  •  But instead I go with the warmest and comfiest (is that a word?)... like this. 

Outfit 1:
Chambrey shirt, jacket, pants, boots: J.Crew/(Sperry Top-Sider)
Sequin sweatshirt: Target

Outfit 2:
Cashmere sweater, cardigan, earrings: J.Crew
Jeans: Hudson
Boots: Steve Madden

Outfit 3:
Shirt, cardigan: J.Crew
Jeans: Hudson
Boots: Sperry Top-Sider

my floor..notice the trend in colors.. haha
    2. This week I've been able to see many of my friends and spend time with people I love (which sadly doesn't happen much while I'm in school)
    • Monday night my dad, mom, Bain, her friend Liz, and I went to the UVU basketball game then went out for crepes
    • Wednesday I got to see an old friend from NYC who was in town recruiting BYU students for her job. We met at the BYU creamery (which I sadly haven't even been to as a student here. I got Butter Pecan ice cream and it was delicious.) It's amazing how connected you feel to people who may not be your closest friends but it feels that way due to similar experiences. It was SO fun to catch up! (it made me miss NYC, but it also reminded  me how grateful I am for the experience and opportunity I had to live there and meet so many amazing and influential people.)
    • Tonight I get to see my dear Talyn! A big group of her friends are going ice skating tonight and they invited me to join-I've never gone out with them before, it should be fun. Plus it will be great to spend time with Talyn! 
    • Tomorrow I get to hang out with my other besties Emily and Katie (we haven't all been together for about 3 months)-so it is a much needed and exciting reunion.
    3. School is getting overwhelming. I am here on campus from 7:30 to at least 9 or later every night. 2 tests next week...let the fun begin!

    4. My scripture theme for the year, 2 Nephi 31:20 "... ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope and love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life." 

    5. And something to always remember, 2 Nephi 32:3,5 "...feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do...enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all things what ye should do.

    6. This week I have come to recognize the need for Heavenly Father in my life. I was talking to Taylor about how one week you can be so determined to fight off Satan-with such a desire to do good and be happy-then all the sudden drop so low and just want to disappear-like it's not worth it to fight anymore because Satan is too strong... He responded with an insight I hadn't considered before, he said that when we feel good it is God's pure love, He is there telling us that we are forgiven, that He is here for us to lift us up and help us fight off Satan...but after He shows that He is there, once we feel His love and comfort, He lets us try again on our own, so we can learn to fight Satan off.

    Taylor related it to a test, teachers help prepare you-they give you study guides and lectures to aid you have to take the test alone, they won't be there giving you the answers. Which is what God is doing-He will give us the tools but ultimately we also have to learn to fight Satan off or we'll never win.

    After Taylor told me that, I came to my Heavenly Father and begged Him to come back because I wasn't strong enough yet-I still needed His help, His strength...the second my prayer was over I literally felt His arms back around me, supporting me. I know I'll need to do it on my own again, but with God's strength aiding me now, I know that next time I will be strong, probably not strong enough...but stronger.

    The bottom line is...we need God. The talk I referenced yesterday "You Matter to Him" President Uchtdorf reminds us "that man is nothing...always retain in remembrance, the greatness of God, and your own is nothing; yet we are EVERYTHING to are not invisible to your Heavenly Father. He loves you." The other talk that I referenced yesterday "His Grace is Sufficient" also re-emphasizes this principle, that God makes up the difference.

    7. Some gorgeous pictures of my co-worker/model Ashley in one of our Avenia gowns!! Check out the full shoot here

    LOVE the scarf with the wedding dress! and her HAIR!

    Thursday, January 19, 2012

    two feel good talks. worth reading.

    You Matter to Him - President Uchtdorf

    "Man is nothing; yet we are everything to God."

    "What you see and experience now is not what forever will be. You will not feel loneliness, sorrow, pain, or discouragement forever...He will neither forget nor forsake those who incline their hearts to Him. Have hope and faith in that promise."

    "the most powerful Being in the universe is the Father of your spirit. He know you. He loves you with a perfect love...He sees you as the being you are capable and designed to become. He wants you to know that you matter to Him."


    okay, and I know I have recommended a lot of talks lately.
    It is truly what everyone, no matter what circumstance, can always be reminded of.

    His Grace is Sufficient - Brad Wilcox (currently in the Winter 2012 BYU magazine) 

    Wednesday, January 18, 2012

    White Blank Page

    Thank you Jen who brought this song into my life. It is AMAZING!
    (I take her 331 Jazz class here at BYU and we are doing a dance to it right now-I am substituting her class while she is off being AMAZING in California doing a show-so I have just been listening to this song constantly ever since)

    My two favorite lines...
    "Tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?"
    "Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life"


    it is perfection. 
    his voice.
    his passion.
    it is so beautiful!

    and because I love Taylor Swift

    now-back to business finance homework.


    It's amazing what perfect timing the Lord has.. my "talk of the day" was Counsel to Youth by President Packer. Just what I needed. READ IT! It's wonderful.

    "He [Lucifer] is determined to disrupt our Heavenly Father's plan and seeks to control the minds and actions of all...But despite the opposition, trials, and temptations, you need not fail or fear."

    "Every living soul who has a physical body ultimately has power over the adversary. You suffer temptations because of your physical nature, but you also have power over him and his angels."

    "The gift of the Holy Ghost, if you consent, will guide and protect you and even correct your actions."

    "If the adversary should take you prisoner due to misconduct, I remind you that you hold the key that will unlock the prison door from the inside. you can be washed clean through the atoning sacrifice of the Savior Jesus Christ."

    "Only repentance can heal what hurts."

    "You are never far from the sight of your loving Heavenly Father."

    "I testify that the outcome of this battle that began in the premortal life is not in question. LUCIFER WILL LOSE!!!!!!!" (emphasis added)

    "You must learn to 'trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.'"

    "..You will be watched over and protected and you yourself will know by the promptings of the Holy Ghost which way to go, for 'by the power of the Holy Ghost ye may know the truth of all things.'"

    and here are some of my favorite pictures floating around pinterest..

    literally the most gorgeous dress/photo. PERFECT.

    Again.. UNREAL!! The dress is flawless-LOVE

    the SKIRT of this gown. WOW. I want it.

    so me. I am in love.

    So there.. some spiritual and some fashion inspiration (I am pretty much only inspired by J.Crew and evening/wedding gowns... and gold, and anything sparkly, and stunning jewelry... yep)

    Tuesday, January 17, 2012

    random thoughts/feelings/etc..

    Personal Revelation and Testimony - Barbara Thompson

    "The Holy Ghost satisfies and fills up every longing of the human heart, and fills up every vacuum."

    "As you appropriately seek for and apply unto the spirit of revelation, I promise you will 'walk in the light of the Lord'...the light it provides will illuminate and enlarge your soul, enlighten your understanding, and direct and protect you and your family."

    "The Lord desires to bless us with guidance, wisdom, and direction in our lives. He desires to pour down His Spirit upon us."

    I LOVE my Marriage and Family class by Brother Dorius-EVERYONE at BYU should take it!!! (and it's only the second day!)

    This was especially applicable to me..

    The Joy of Living the Great Plan of Happiness - Elder Scott

    How can you receive the greatest happiness and blessings from this earth experience?
    • Learn the doctrinal foundation of the great plan of happiness by studying the scriptures, pondering their content, and praying to understand them. Carefully study and use the proclamation of the First Presidency and the Twelve on the family. It was inspired of the Lord.
    • Listen to the voice of current and past prophets. Their declarations are inspired. You may verify that counsel in your own mind and heart by praying about it as it applies to your special circumstances. Ask the Lord to confirm your choices and accept accountability for them.
    • Obey the inner feelings that come as promptings from the Holy Ghost. Those feelings are engendered by your righteous thoughts and acts and your determination to seek the will of the Lord and to live it.
    • When needed, seek counsel and guidance from parents and your priesthood leaders.
    Don't be afraid to act on the feelings and promptings you receive. I know it's scary but, they are from God, they are what God is telling you to do in order for you to receive his fullest blessings.

    I challenge everyone to write in a journal. I was SO overwhelmed by this challenge when my therapist told me to.. but it has been such a learning experience for me. It takes a while to start but... don't worry about catching up on the past-I tried, and failed. Just write. Write your unedited feelings, your thoughts. Whatever comes to you, anything and everything. 1 line or a whole page. The good and the bad. You would not believe how many things you find out about yourself. It is really amazing. (if you add constant prayer, reading the Book of Mormon, and reading conference talks to it, the Lord will be closer to you and I promise revelation will come (even if its not what you necessarily want to hear.))

    a few things I've learned about myself (and life..and it's been less than a week of writing in it)
    • I am scared of the unknown (hence the theme of this year-FEARLESS) 
    • My favorite word is WHY? (I literally wrote a whole page asking WHY questions) 
    • Sometimes I just need to lay in a ball on my floor crying-it helps
    • I've seen steady patterns in my life (good and bad) 
    • I know better what makes me feel sad
    • I also know better what makes me feel good 
    • Sometimes I don't want to wake up and get out of bed... and that's okay (for a little bit) 
    • I need to "come what may and love it" 
    • Anger is a choice (I have a hard time controlling my emotions, I forgive very easily but I am quick to take offense and be hurt)
    • The devil is REAL, he is sadly in my life WAY more than I would like, realize what tools he uses against you.. you only will by writing them down.. they again are a pattern
    • Life is painful, it is meant for mistakes BUT it will be worth it
    • Satan will always try to convince us that our righteous thoughts and desires are wrong
    • "He makes me mad" is a false statement (still haven't learned how to break that habit..but I am really good at letting other people effect me) 
    • and the big one that I have been pelted with on 3 occasions (talk I read on Sunday, Relief Society lesson, and today in Marriage and Family class) and it finally stuck and made sense... I AM SELFISH. SO selfish. (and that is a crappy's sad when you don't really realize it to..)
    • Satan wants me miserable (and sadly he has succeeded, I've let him win) 
    • Satan uses fear, deception, doubt and even logic-BEWARE (this is hard for me, I believe it...but how do you go through life not fearing and doubting.. If you are seeking an answer from God, how does He tell you it's wrong if it's not be having a doubt) UGh... so frustrating
    • When you keep the commandments YOU RECEIVE BLESSINGS
    • I'm super bad at REMEMBERING..(which is why that word is stated in the Book of Mormon over 160 times)
    I'll save the more personal thoughts and realizations that hang on to most of those bullet points for my own journal.

    Please start on yourself (and future self when you read this, if you've stopped...start again!) Don't even necessarily just write about your day... write you intimate thoughts-it feels good to get them down on paper. 

    (sorry, another post without pictures..)

    Monday, January 16, 2012

    probably too personal..

    I've been debating whether to share this with the blog world... but I feel like it will make things make more sense for everyone. Plus-my word for the year is FEARLESS... so here it goes.

    -I am suffering with depression. I have been for a long long time, I just didn't realize exactly what it was or what my sadness meant until now. It is really hard to admit that, to realize that you are one of those unhappy people that people don't want to be around.. so. I am trying to overcome it now, to fight with God for joy and happiness. To fight this battle of negativity and depression against Satan. It is hard. and miserable. haha... but I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and that he has a plan for me. He knows what I need in my life to provide happiness and strength and I have faith that with my patience and on His time I will overcome this depression. I know He will provide a clear path for me, a path to happiness. ((It's amazing how much harder everything gets when you are trying to do the right things...but I also know that I have felt God's loving arms around me so much these past few weeks-it's a war-it's not easy. But I know I can win as long as I have the Lord on my side.


    -Taylor and I decided to break up.

    This is how I've welcomed in 2012...
    I can only hope that it goes up from here.

    Sunday, January 15, 2012


    Jazz Class
    One Tree Hill

    Brother/Sister Swap. 
    (Sy and his friend Brennan thought it'd be fun to take each others older sister out, it was fun, I don't know the last time I've hung out with my brother-sad huh?)
    MI2 and crepes!
    (best crepes EVER- ME Crepes, Alpine Village) 


    Bridal Show at The Grand America
    White Collar

    my college timeline.


    Summer 2008
    (worked 15-20 hrs/week at Kaleidoscope)

    Fall Semester 2008
    -Ballet Technique 3
    -Healthy Living
    -1st-Year Italian, Part 1 (for a FIT study abroad that I ended up not doing)
    -Introduction to Calculus
    -The Book of Mormon (1st half)
    -Intermed Clothing Construction
    ---SEM HR ERN 16.00

    Winter Semester 2009
    -Principles of Biology
    -Jazz Dance Technique 2 (Advanced)
    -Ballet Technique 3
    -Introduction to the Humanities
    -The Book of Mormon (2nd half)
    -Introductory Sociology
    ---SEM HR ERN 15.00

    Summer Term 2009
    -Introduction to Art History
    -World Civilization Since 1500 (Art History)
    ---SEM HR ERN 6.00
    (worked 20-30 hrs/week at Kaleidoscope/aBree Original-headbands)


    Fall Semester 2009
    -LIFE DRAWING (nude people...)
    -APPAREL DSGN/STRUCTURED SILHOUTTES (draping coats/jackets)
    -APPAREL DSGN/SOFT SILHOUETTES (draping dresses/skirts)
    -FASHION ART & DESIGN 1-YEAR (fashion drawing)
    -INTRODUCTION TO COMP DESIGN (Photoshop and Illustrator)
    ---SEM HR ERN 17.5

    (during Christmas break - aBree Original-headbands)

    Winter Semester 2010
    -APPAREL PRODUCT DATA MGMT (computer program-PDM)
    -MODEL DRAWING I FOR FASH DSGN (clothed models)
    -FASHION ART & DESIGN IV (fashion drawing)
    -DIGITAL FLATS AND SPECS (computer program)
    ---SEM HR ERN 14.5

    Summer Semester 2010
    ---SEM HR ERN 3.00

    (during summer break - aBree Original-headbands)

    Fall Semester 2010 (somehow I don't know where my transcript is for these classes)
    -Textile Lace and Technology
    -Professional Speech Communication
    ---SEM HR ERN 4.5
    (worked 20-30 hrs/week at J.Crew Columbus Circle)


    Winter Semester 2011
    -Principles of Accounting
    -Social/Cultural Anthropology
    -Ballet Technique 4 (Advanced)
    -U S Through 1877 (History)
    -Spreadsheet Skills (Excel)
    -Computer Presentation Skills (PowerPoint)
    -The New Testament
    -Jazz Dance Technique 2 (Audit)
    ---SEM HR ERN 14.50

    Spring/Summer 2011
    (started working 20-30 hrs/week at Avenia Bridal in April)
    (TA beginning Jazz Summer semester)

    Fall Semester 2011
    -Entrepreneurship Lect Series
    -Intro to Mgt Info Systems (ISYS 201-computer programs/html)
    -Physical Science
    -The Doctrine & Covenants (2nd half)
    -Human Development
    -Principles of Statistics
    ---SEM HR ERN 15.00
    (worked 20 hours a week at Avenia Bridal)
    (taught Intermediate Jazz at BYU)
    (made first aBree Original Wedding Gown)

    Winter Semester 2012

    -World Civilization to 1500 (Art History)
    -Financial Management (BUSM 301)
    -Econ Principles & Problems
    -Commun in Organiztnl Settings (MCOM 320-business writing)
    -LDS Marriage & Family
    ---SEM HR ERN 14.00
    (working <15 hours a week at Avenia Bridal) 
    (teaching 2 beginning Jazz and 1 Intermediate Jazz at BYU)




    AP 100R AP Credit 3.00 P
    ENGL 115 College Writing & Reading 3.00 P

    PSYCHOLOGY 85 Score = 5
    PSYCH 111 General Psychology 3.00 P

    -AP HR ERN 9.00 HR GRD 0.00


    TOT HR ERN 110.50
    GPA 3.71

    THAT IS A LOT OF SCHOOL!! over 100 hours

    You'd think I'd be graduating soon....
    nope. 2 more years.

    See why I am burnt out?? 46 classes: 17 A, 12 A-, 7 B+, 3 B, 2 B-, 2 pass, for the 2 classes for FALL 2010 I don't know where my grades are, and 1 audit.

    AND why I hate that I still have 2 generals left (1 more after this semester). Ya... FIT and BYU don't mix well. NOTHING transferred from FIT, and BYU has a completely different set of generals than the Liberal Art classes that I needed so that I could be accepted to the FIT's accelerated Associates Degree program... Thank you BYU and FIT. I have taken more classes in humanities and art history than I have in dance or business... I might as well change my major.

    Wednesday, January 11, 2012


    Well... I don't really know where to start.

    School is fine.
    I love teaching my dancers.
    It has been AMAZING taking class from Jen again.
    and.... life has been a little difficult lately.

    On the up-side, I am re-committing myself to my Savior
    SO.. heads up, this blog may turn into my little inspiration/spiritual release for a little while.

    Recently I read a talk "The Power of the Scripture" by Richard G. Scott, and it brought me much comfort. I have started reading the Book of Mormon daily, multiple times daily. The blessings are real. Here are a few of my favorite quotes:

    " Scriptures are like packets of light that illuminate our minds and give place to guidance and inspiration from on high. They can become the key to open the channel to communion with our Father in Heaven.."

    "Scriptures can calm an agitated soul, giving peace, hope, and a restoration of confidence in one's ability to overcome the challenges of life. They have potent power to heal emotional challenges when there is faith in the Savior. They can accelerate physical healing."

    "Trust in the Lord with all heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all they ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct they paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil..." (Proverbs 3:5-7, i believe)

    I am also taking a Marriage and Family class here at BYU, cliche, I know...but you know me and love/weddings/marriage..etc. It's kind of my thing. If I could major in all things "Wedding" I would. Anyways, we are assigned many talks and I just read one by President Hinckley titled, "What God Hath Joined Together." There was an amazing story about a single mother who had 7 children all crying out for her one evening, she said:

    "I remember looking through tears toward the sky, and I said, 'O my Father, I just can't do it tonight. I'm too tired. I can't face it. I can't go home and take care of all those children alone. Could I just come to You and stay with You for just one night? I'll come back in the morning. "

    "I didn't really  hear the works of reply, but I heard them in my mind. The answer was, 'No, little one, you can't come to me now. You would never wish to come back. But I can come to you."

    -AMAZING. For so many reasons. 1. If we saw Heaven, we'd never return here. It is amazing there and just remembering that is enough to recommit myself daily to live better and be better, to make it my NUMBER ONE priority to return there, to Heaven with my Heavenly Father. and 2. We just need to ask, God wants to come help, and he does!! He will come to us. THAT is simply a beautiful concept.

    Well..that is my spiritual overload for the day. I hope that maybe it was what someone needed to hear-it sure helped me today.

    God is on our side. 

    Friday, January 6, 2012

    School: Day 1 and 2

    My two outfits this week (Wednesday and Thursday, I don't have class on Friday) 

    Day 1:
    Shirt, Vest, Belt: J.Crew 
    Jeans: Hudson
    Boots: Steve Madden via Nordstrom 

    Day 2:
    Shirt, Sweater: J.Crew
    Jeans: Hudson 
    (yes I still wear white jeans even though it's winter)
    Boots: Sperry Top-Siders via J.Crew

    I'm still trying to get things worked out in my schedule but it seems like it will be a hard long semester. I finally got to dance today for the first time in like 9 months (teaching dance doesn't really count as dancing) and it felt SO SO SO incredibly good. I am out of dancing shape that is for sure and I will be extremely sore tomorrow but it was WORTH IT in every way. Today was also a good day because I got my massage (by Amber at Remedez) and that always helps me feel better!

    simply perfect.

    David Archuleta
    "I'm Trying To Be Like Jesus"

    Thursday, January 5, 2012

    Happy Birthday

    Mrs. Katie Sarah Agle Lifferth

    (she is currently celebrating with her hubby in Disney World)
    I love you sweet Katie. Happy 21 years!!

    Tuesday, January 3, 2012

    Winter Semester

    The time has come, back to school.

    I get to start my days bright and early, 7:30 on Monday and Wednesday (teaching Jazz), and 8 on Tuesday and Thursday (teaching Jazz). Good news is I don't teach or have class or work on Friday!! (which means I will hopefully be able to take the Advanced Jazz class at 9 (one of my favorite teachers, Jen, is teaching this semester!))

    My classes this semester are:
    BUS M 301-Financial Management
    M COM 320- Communication in Organizational Settings
    Econ 110
    Rel C234- LDS Marriage and Family 
    Arthc201- Art History World Civilization to 1500

    and I am teaching:
    2 beginning Jazz classes and 1 intermediate Jazz class


    As my sister and I were cleaning/organizing our rooms during the break we came across something that we thought was awesome! haha

    Our combined collection of J.Crew button-ups 

    and our combined collection of Sperry Top-Siders 


    I have a new addiciton. Which is not good now that school is starting...Talyn introduced it to me a while ago, it's on instant watch on Netflix now and.... yesterday I watched way too many episodes when I should have been doing so many other things. It is so good because there is hardly any violence, cursing, sex, etc. (at least not in the first 10 episodes). It is just a good wholesome AMAZING show. I highly recommend it. (you will get addicted)


    I still havne't taken a picture of the other skirt I made over the break..

    I am also in the process of making 2 dresses, we'll see if they get put on hold for 4 months or if I can whip them out this week before homework gets too crazy..


    Happy Schooling.

    Sunday, January 1, 2012


    This year flew by.
    I'm not big on resolutions.
    and this year didn't end as perfectly as I would have hoped.
    So it's not necessarily a good day for me to reflect. 
    Hopefully this new year will bring more happiness and love.
    to me. to my family. and to all.
    Here are some pictures from the week. 

    On Bain:
    Shirt, Scarf, Shoes: J.Crew
    Pants: Banana Republic 

    On Mom:
    Shirt and Jeans: J.Crew
    Cardigan: Macy's 
    Shoes: ?

    On Me:
    Sweater and Vest: J.Crew
    Jeans: Hudson (Nordstrom)
    Shoes: Steve Madden (Nordstrom)

    Here is one of my new skirts I made this break!
    Shirt and belt: J.Crew
    Skirt: aBree Original 

    Taylor set up a candle-light dinner for us

    SY turned 19!!! 
    Happy Birthday!

    a little J.Crew Factory shopping
    On Bain:
    All J.Crew

    On Me:
    All J.Crew 

    Dinner at Zermatt

    5 course meal!
    this one dessert was SO HARD, it was funny to see everyone try to eat it! (some even tried soaking it in water.....haha)