a-freaking-mazing

BEST CONCERT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More to come. 

I think I am going to post a Taylor Swift quote everyday.

Because she ROCKS and has the best lyrics.

Pictures didn't turn out great but 

AHAHAHAH her outfits were INSANE!! 

I want them all. SO BAD. 

She is amazing. 

Here is just one reason why I love her. 

and wish I was her.

I WANT HER GOWNS!!!!

"Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine and life makes love look hard...the stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours." -Ours

little blessings..

This fell out of my scriptures this morning....

"We will have to make some hard choices of how we use our time. But there should never be a conscious choice to let the spiritual become secondary as a pattern in our lives. Never...When we put God's purposes first, He will give us miracles...Those apparent prison walls of 'not enough time' will begin to recede, even as you are called to do more."
-President Henry B. Eyring

I don't think it was a mistake that I stumbled across this quote today..

breakdown #1 of Fall semester.

Well friends...
I had my first breakdown of the semester this past weekend..
Yes. Tears and all...
The feeling of "I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE" was extreme.
I had slept 4 hours then spent from 8:30am-1:30pm in the library on Saturday, went to work, then returned to the library again from 6-11pm...
I then proceeded to do homework in my available free time on Sunday (I HATE doing homework on Sunday-my body doesn't function normally on my "rest" day)
and then I continued to Monday planning to wake up at 4am to do homework...missing my 2 alarms and having my mom wake me up at 7:20.... I cried again, threw a hat on and was in Physical Science by 7:55am....and I left the library at 11pm.
Today is just another long day.. 5:30am-6:40pm at school, 7-8:15 MASSAGE!!!!!!! thank heavens!, 8:30pm-midnight library.
And guess what..... there are still not enough hours for me to get every single assignment/reading/studying etc. done that I need to do.
Don't ask me how that's possible...
but it is.
You can see I don't slack off.
So..
I'm learning that I really need to figure out my class priorities and pick and choose what I am able to accomplish (whether that means missing a few reading assignments or not studying as much as I would like for an exam).
There is simply not enough time.

SO... breakdown I did.
Tootsie rolls and my best friend made it better...
BUT... things are still kind of crazy.

Physical Science Exam went alright
Stats Exam went good
and Human Development I take tomorrow... still haven't studied much for it
blah.

aright well.. since I am feeling down-I thought it'd be good to write down a few things I am MOST thankful for currently...

• Taylor
• my mom
• education- even though it is HARD at times
• my talents/gifts
• my motivation and dedication
• my job
• french fries and chocolate
• study guides provided by teachers! helpful. 
• the weather... (GET COLDER PLEASE!!!)
• Gavin DeGraw and Taylor Swift (new CD and CONCERT TOMORROW!)
• J.Crew's new catalog!
• Amber. My massage therapist. 

and that's all for now.

Oh.. and I got a new calling in my singles ward.
Career and Education Committee Co-Chair.
I don't even really know what that means.

Okay well I need to start paying attention in my class now...
PEACE.

MIA

Sorry friends.
I also apologize to myself.
This blog is being neglected.
Not by want.
But because I literally do not have time.
I guess if this is my journal it is documenting how much free time I don't have.
My hours are scheduled all day with class and work.
When I am not doing one of those things I have a long list of homework.
I don't even have time to paint my nails.
Keep my room cleaned.
Pick out cute clothes.
Take 30 minutes to just relax.
Etc.

Well I better go. I am in the library and have a TON of studying to do.
and not enough time to do it.

I did have a little fun last night though.
Tay invited me to the BYU football game.
Then we ate french fries (because that is ALL I crave these days).

Oh, and please pick up Gavin DeGraw's new CD-Sweeter. It is perfect.

Maybe sometime soon I can find an hour to update.
Not likely.

Saturday

My life........ is awesome.

7:00am Alarm SNOOZE
7:30am Shower/get ready/breakfast/make lunch/etc...
9:00am Leave for the BYU Library. aka the dungeon.
9:15am Start organizing and Entrepreneurship homework. Found this "start-up" company. love it. COLOURlovers.
10:00am Read Human Development textbook (Exam this weekend)
11:00am Read materials/brainstorm for my 6 page Human Development paper. (Due Thursday)
12:00pm Finished making my stats flash cards (Exam this weekend)

my failed attempt at a sad face... hahaha

12:30pm Studied for Physical Science (Exam this weekend)
6:30pm Finally had enough of Physical Science (only got through 5 of 9 chapters), needed food, and had a massive headache so I got taco bell in the Wilkinson center.
7:00pm Made my way over to the stadium for some BYU vs UTAH football

10:00pm Left the game early because we got destroyed... depressing.
10:45pm Finally made it home.

Yes, I was on BYU campus for 13 hours. On a Saturday. and I STILL have so much homework and studying to do. 3 exams this weekend. THREE. come on...... AND it's the TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT on FRIDAY!!!!! and Gavin DeGraw's new CD FINALLY comes out on TUESDAY! oh, and did I mention I got sick this week too... ya. it's been a fun one.

President Monson. 9/11

The Washington Post 

via

"The calamity of September 11th, 2001 has cast a long shadow. Ten years later, many of us are still haunted by its terrible tragedy of lost lives and broken hearts. It is an episode of anguish that has become a defining moment in the history of the American nation and the world. This week, the Mormon Tabernacle Choir, along with Tom Brokaw, will pay its own homage to the unforgettable events of September 11, 2001.

There was, as many have noted, a remarkable surge of faith following the tragedy. People across the United States rediscovered the need for God and turned to Him for solace and understanding. Comfortable times were shattered. We felt the great unsteadiness of life and reached for the great steadiness of our Father in Heaven. And, as ever, we found it. Americans of all faiths came together in a remarkable way.

Sadly, it seems that much of that renewal of faith has waned in the years that have followed. Healing has come with time, but so has indifference. We forget how vulnerable and sorrowful we felt. Our sorrow moved us to remember the deep purposes of our lives. The darkness of our despair brought us a moment of enlightenment. But we are forgetful. When the depth of grief has passed, its lessons often pass from our minds and hearts as well.

Our Father’s commitment to us, His children, is unwavering. Indeed He softens the winters of our lives, but He also brightens our summers. Whether it is the best of times or the worst, He is with us. He has promised us that this will never change.

But we are less faithful than He is. By nature we are vain, frail, and foolish. We sometimes neglect God. Sometimes we fail to keep the commandments that He gives us to make us happy. Sometimes we fail to commune with Him in prayer. Sometimes we forget to succor the poor and the downtrodden who are also His children. And our forgetfulness is very much to our detriment.

If there is a spiritual lesson to be learned from our experience of that fateful day, it may be that we owe to God the same faithfulness that He gives to us. We should strive for steadiness, and for a commitment to God that does not ebb and flow with the years or the crises of our lives. It should not require tragedy for us to remember Him, and we should not be compelled to humility before giving Him our faith and trust. We too should be with Him in every season.

The way to be with God in every season is to strive to be near Him every week and each day. We truly “need Him every hour,” not just in hours of devastation. We must speak to Him, listen to Him, and serve Him. If we wish to serve Him, we should serve our fellow men. We will mourn the lives we lose, but we should also fix the lives that can be mended and heal the hearts that may yet be healed.

It is constancy that God would have from us. Tragedies are not merely opportunities to give Him a fleeting thought, or for momentary insight to His plan for our happiness. Destruction allows us to rebuild our lives in the way He teaches us, and to become something different than we were. We can make Him the center of our thoughts and His Son, Jesus Christ, the pattern for our behavior. We may not only find faith in God in our sorrow. We may also become faithful to Him in times of calm."

via

Thomas S. Monson is president of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

science venting session.

I think I have a hard time with Science because...
I've never thought or cared or worried why..

1)Hot air balloons can rise and stay in the air.
2)Boats can float. (I don't care that the buoyant forces are perpendicular to the surface and that the weight of the boat weighs the same as the displaced water...) They float... and I'm fine with just that fact alone.
3)There is a difference in pressure between standing on flat feet or being on your toes. (ie. a 98 lbs woman rocking back on a spike of her high heel puts more pressure on the point of contact with the ground than an elephants broad feet...) weird.
4)That the Earth is pushing back on  me with the same force I'm exerting on it.... why does knowing that matter, and how does knowing help me?
5)You weigh different amounts in a moving elevator. Relevance? Who weighs themselves in an elevator?
6)That a fly and a train exert an equal force on each other when they smack into each other. Hmmm.. the fly dies... the train is unaffected. If the train isn't affected and no one cares if a fly dies then...why???
7)What all takes place as you jump.... JUST JUMP. I've never known and I'm fine.
8) Etc. Etc. Etc. Etc.....

If I am fine without knowing all these things then WHY do I have to study them.
Blah.

Sorry for all those who do like this stuff... I wish I were you cause...that would make this semester a WHOLE lot easier.

I understand that some science is good to know. But I really don't think it matters what gravity/air friction/forces/velocity/acceleration/etc. are all doing..... they just do it. Why do I need to understand why? Or maybe it's weird that I've never thought to care why?

I don't know. I'm tired. It is now 10:15 on Friday night and I am off to sleep.

Goodnight world. Hello bed.

So.. I just did my schedule for next week.

Starting today, 14 mintues ago... until 10pm next Thursday

I have (approx) 31 hours of homework and only 35 available hours to do it all in (the other hours are taken up by classes, work, transportation, and hopefully sleeping.. I guess if I cut out sleeping then I'd have a few more....

 Basically I'm just saying sorry if I don't text, answer, talk, etc... to anyone this semester. I'll be in the library. You can visit me there. Treats are welcome.

pondering...

If I go a few more weeks on my insanely busy/not enough sleep schedule.. will I get used to it so it won't affect me as much??? and I won't be almost falling asleep...continuously.. throughout the entire day?

It's only going downhill from here...I'm only in week 2 of school..

2 weeks from today are my first 3 midterms...

I'm already stressing. HA.

at least I have a library buddy to suffer with.

Thanks Taylor.

I just hope this semester doesn't take it's toll on me like FIT did... where I turned into a walking dead person..looked horrible....went up a dress size.........etc.

SCARY!!! Life @ FIT May 2010

HAHAHAhA I was looking through my FIT pictures... and found some more from finals week (December 2009)... YIKES. They are funny so I'll post them... even though I should be doing Statistics right now.........................ACTUALLY just visit my blog post about FINALS WEEK. More explanation, more pictures..

and again while wasting precious time... I stumbled across this blog post that is called "a day in the life of a designer" another insight to my old life at FIT.

Okay..enough down time (it's been my only so far this week)... back to work.

Diamonds are Forever. preview.

I won't spoil all the fun...

Here is one picture from Talyn's birthday party. 

All my best girl friends!! 

okay... here is one more. 

THE Birthday girl. 

More to come!

Photography by: Kiara Farley

WARNING: long post with not many pictures...first week of SCHOOL

I don't even know where to begin.... Maybe I'll try going by days and hopefully that will spark my memory of everything I wish I had time to write last week. A few things to start with. I love learning. I love fall (hopefully it becomes sweater weather soon-my closet is all ready for it). and I love BYU.

Sunday August 28th, 2011: Through the course of church meetings I had my journal open and was writing notes and inspirations down and I realized something that I always knew I just don't really think about too often.... I base my happiness too much on others. How they treat me, how they make me feel, how they feel towards me, etc... I don't choose MYSELF whether I am happy or sad-I let others influence my decisions. It is horrible really. I have so much to be grateful for-things that my Heavenly Father has given me, opportunities, talents, experiences, love. I have so many amazing things in my life-yet I mostly choose to dwell on my relationships with others-whether good or bad-to determine my mood. My goal this week is to try harder to not be affected by other people-to focus on myself and the gifts I've been given that bring me joy and satisfaction.

Monday August 29th, 2011: First day of Fall 2011 semester. I love a new school year. My first class is at 8am-Physical Science. Not really my best or favorite subject.. It will probably be my hardest one.... 9am-Statistics. Doesn't seem too exciting but... I think I should be fine at it. 11am-Doctrine and Covenants. I AM SO EXCITED for this class. My teacher seems AWESOME and I know I am going to learn SO much, I cannot wait! 2pm-Entrepreneurship Lecture class. Easy and interesting. Should be insightful. 3pm I went home and organized my life until 10pm (yes it took that long to read all the syllabi-write up my calendars-schedule my days and so on). I am VERY organized when it comes to school and I take it very seriously. I LOVE IT. My schedule is going to be rather.... scary. I scheduled every hour between 6am - 10pm, Monday-Thursday and 6am - 7pm on Friday and I am left with a grand total of 26.5 hours a week for homework/nap/free/blog/schedule/me time. Good luck right. HA I don't believe that is enough time for all the things I'll need to get done but I have faith. It is going to be a busy/stressful semester. If you want to hang out... I'll be available Friday and Saturday after 7pm...hopefully.

Tuesday August 30th, 2011: Since parking is a nightmare, my mom drops me off on campus after she drops off Bain @ 8am. Since my class isn't until 9:30 on T TH I have time to workout and plan my Jazz class. Today was my first day teaching. We didn't actually dance today we just went over the syllabus, I felt so professional. I am really excited about using my talents for good. I am the kind of person who takes time and tries to be the best at things..... I can tell that is what I will be trying to do with my Jazz class. Lucky students! 12pm I had Human Development-I have been told by numerous people that I NEEDED to take this class from Larry Nelson and I can't wait. People say he changes lives! 4pm ISYS 201. Information Systems... probably won't be my favorite class but I get to learn how to build a website and study HTML which I am excited about. 7pm BEST 1.5 HOURS OF MY LIFE. Massage at Remedez by Amber. I know I mentioned her a few months ago when I had my last massage because SHE IS AMAZING. I recommend her to everyone. She really is the best masseuse I have EVER had. While she works on you she talks to you to try and understand you and your body and why certain areas are tighter than others. She works emotion and energy into the massage and releases not only physical tension but emotional as well. She knows her stuff and I love it!!! I really leave her feeling 1,000 pounds lighter. I have decided that massages help me more than anything else and so I am going to take care of my body and treat myself to a monthly massage. I feel it is worth it and that it is truly the best thing I can do for myself.

Wednesday August 31st, 2011: Does anyone want to tutor me in Physical Science??? Because seriously.. I need it. The homework load for this class is reading 3 chapters a week, doing 1 homework assignment a week, and having 4 midterms along with a final. YIKES. Stats requires about 2 assignments a week and reading our textbook online in preparation for each class. Doctrine and Covenants is obviously reading the book along with a D&C student manual that gives further insight (which I LOVE) we also have to write in a journal every time we read (I am sure many thoughts will be posted on here from my readings). 2pm I went to Avenia Bridal for work. Then I came home, made myself a very exciting and nutritious dinner, and did homework.

(I felt like I was at FIT again. Turkey and cheese, tomatoes, olives, celery with natural nut butter and raisins, cottages cheese with blueberries and peaches, Bolthouse Green Machine drink, and 2 tootsie rolls-I'm pretty sure this is the most random and well rounded meal ever.. ha)

Thursday September 1st, 2011: I taught dance for the first time! AND IT WAS AWESOME. I had so much fun, I was so nervous but everything went really well! My Human Development class is another "read the entire textbook" class but I think it should be interesting. For I SYS (which I only have on Tuesday) we have a textbook and a packet that we have to read (basically I am going to read my brains out this semester..... ) I went into Avenia at 4. I came home beat. The days have been long and tiring. I decided that I really will need to make time for myself this semester to keep me sane. Along with my massages I'll be working out, dancing, and I think I am going to buy a Yoga membership. I hate spending money but I think Yoga and massages will be very beneficial to my heath and well-being.

Friday September 2nd, 2011: Was TALYN'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Yahoo, 21! Also, MEGAN MILLER MONCUR transferred to BYU and is in my Physical Science class.. YAY!! It'll be so good to see her 3 times a week. After stats I went to the morning shift at work (10-2) so that I would be done in time for TALYN'S 21st BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!! I came home, got ready, (my mom was so kind to do the work I was assigned to do for me... aka making oreo balls, banana pudding, and altering Talyn's dress) and headed up to the PARTY! The theme was James Bond-Diamonds are Forever. We all got dressed up, mingled, played games, won prizes, drank mocktails, and then watched an outdoor movie. PICTURES TO COME! After all the festivities I was helping clean up when I realized I lost my keys.... I thought maybe Sy had put them in his pocket and drove off with them on accident... but nope... I searched the grass in the dark and FINALLY found them. THANK GOODNESS! Oh, what an eventful night. I got to be with all my besties; Talyn, Katie, and Emily and sit on an Aston Martin (like I said-pictures to come!).

Miss TWNETY ONE and me..

Saturday September 3rd, 2011: I had work 9:45-3, I had a MASSIVE headache...but had homework to do, so I took my meds and headed to the dungeon (what I call the Library-there is no reception down there so I find that it is an appropriate term). The dumb policy at BYU for returning books is lame... I had to return a book because the professor switched it last minute but FRIDAY was the last day to return books for a full refund. SO I only got 80% back on my un-used book. AND they didn't even have the new book I needed in stock-so I'm still textbook-less. I slaved away (along with a total of 2 other people-apparently doing homework on Saturday evening isn't a popular thing to do... haha who knew?!) until about 7:30 when I decided that I had enough. My daddy took the family out to dinner at the newly remodeled Riverside Country Club. It is BEAUTIFUL!!! Then I had some girl time with Emily-eating Talyn's left over cake and watching School of Rock on TV. (Connection-Talyn and I have been friends since elementary school. I met Katie and Emily at FIT. Talyn met Katie and Emily at my birthday party. Talyn and Emily now are roommates at Alpine Village. and Katie's fiance Daren knew Talyn when she went to UVU... small world huh!-long story short, we're all friends now and I basically spend a lot of my time at Talyn/Emily's apartment (I actually almost moved in with them.....saving money got the better of me though).



Sunday September 4th, 2011: Church was good and inspirational. Sunday's are a breath of fresh air for me, I love them. I don't have church until 1pm so I had time for a lot of personal study this morning which is the best way to start off a day. One thing we talked about in Relief Society were the gifts of the Spirit (Doctrine & Covenants 46) I recommend reading that chapter and really pondering about what gifts you've been given and which ones you want to work on and receive. In Sunday School we talked about giving our self to the Lord-Christ did so and we must do the same. He is the only way we can receive comfort and strength. We must RELY on God and choose Him, He is the only one who can bring us true peace and joy. I was reading a conference talk during the Sacrament and loved this quote by Thomas S. Monson "Though the storm clouds may gather, though the rains may pour down upon us, our knowledge of the gospel and our love of our Heavenly Father and of our Savior will comfort and susatin us, it will bring joy to our hearts as we walk uprightly and keep the commandments." (that was probably slightly paraphrased). The main topic throughout all the lessons today was to be grateful for TRIALS, for a change of heart, for patience, for suffering. All good things come in time. Trials refine us and give us knowledge and strength. The Lord will provide the right path and the right time and if we follow Him all things will be for our benefit and happiness.

Well now that I have bored you to TEARS.....
I just needed to get everything down. I promise posts won't continue to be so long and boring!

"Happy September"

I stumbled across the post I wrote called

"Happy Septmeber"

from 2010... 

For me my new year starts in Fall. 

It is my rejuvenating time of changes and opportunities. 

I loved this post and since I am short on time this morning I will simply link to it.

I really cannot beleive it is SEPTEMBER already.

The year has FLOWN by.

---More to come after church. I PROMISE.