miss

I cried.. for the first time in a long time, yesterday.. in the car.. naturally, to some random song playing on the radio. It was good to cry, it is healthy and natural. And for me, needed. I was starting to think I had to feelings, no emotions. I used to be the one to feel EVERY emotion to its extreme, cry ALL the time, over think and analyze everything whether it was good or bad for my heart, but for the past little while I haven't been that way, I've been almost empty it feels like.. ANYWAYS.. this is the song that made me FEEL again, at least for a little bit.

You're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days, hadn't gone by so fast
These are the good times, so take a good look around
You may not see it now, but you're gonna miss this

It is SO true. I live life so fast. I just want to be off doing something different, going somewhere else.. but I shouldn't. Because when I think about my past, I do miss it.

I miss dance-all day, everyday
I miss seeing my friends, with out making an effort to
I miss my best friend

Today I made a memory with my family at dinner that I will miss too one day, but it also helped me see that it is okay to miss things because that means life was memorable, meaningful, wonderful. I have never laughed SO SO SO hard EVER, in my whole life than I did with my family tonight. We had a BLAST. Our Orem Owlz baseball player who is living with us this summer, Ike, was able to have Sunday dinner with us, and lets just say we sure made it interesting for him. Bain is the next SNL comedian so she showed her skills as Bain Qui Qui (youtube video posted below, scroll down to bottom of page), Sy is a raptor, My dad laughs like a hyena, Seth does 'The Bree', and me and mom join in when we can. Basically it was about 40 minutes of PURE laughter, Ike has it on video and I think I am going to start carrying my video camera around with me too because we need some of this on tape, it is priceless. We played Mad Gab after which was also entertaining. BASICALLY I love my family so much and am so incredibly grateful for the times we share together. I don't want it to end. We will never get this summer back. Life changes; marriage, school, missions, etc. but the memories are what makes life worth living. These nights that will be remembered forever are what makes 'missing' okay.

Tonight I feel happy, happy and grateful to have the BEST and most HILARIOUS family on earth. I wish you all could have been a fly on our wall and witnessed our night because it was perfect.

In church today a talk was given on LOVE and KINDNESS. Tell the ones that you love, that you love them, don't just assume they already know. SHOW your love constantly... That is one thing I am not good with, I can show my love through kindness, but I don't use the 'L' word, out loud, often. My goal this week is to say the 'L' word to those who I love and to SHOW my love ALWAYS, no matter what. I am also going to remember some of my favorite memories and miss them, and then make new memories that I can miss later on in life.

ENJOY today! Cherish your memories and remember to miss them. Life is GOOD and perfect. And if you don't believe that, change your attitude because it will make life so much better. Love immensely and show it through kindness. BE HAPPY! be positive, and REMEMBER. Remember your life, the good times, the memories...and remember to love.